Tigeress: I decided to become an advocate because of my life of abuse & mental health. I went through domestic violence as a child & my mum also has bipolar & she is narcissistic person. Throughout my childhood she was in & out of hospital from being sectioned. I did not understand when I was younger & got told my mum was ill.
I had my first child at 15 in which I had severe postnatal depression. My mum tried to get me sectioned under the mental health act but I got diagnosed with postnatal depression & I’ve suffered with depression most of my life.
More recently in 2012 I left my ex narcissistic psychopath partner in 2012 because of domestic violence. I was mentally emotionally,spiritually & verbally on the odd occasion physically abused for a 10 year period,why I decided to get up & walk is because of my sanity & my youngest child still at home my daughter
It has been a hard 2 years we have had to moved around the ul into women refuges but now we have our own home now & we are happish,it has been hard my daughter has ptsd & has tried killing herself 5 times in the past year she also self harms & is suicidal,she now has professional help from camns & goes to a special school for children with emotional needs etc…
I have ptsd & depresion & I’m waiting to see a doctor about some medication for my ptsd as i took myself of medication because it was doing nothing for me,& waiting for mdr I think it’s called treatment, I do believe I’ve had ptsd since I was very young but because no one knew a lot about it when i was younger i could not be diagnosed or my mother didn’t want me to,my day to day life can a roller coaster, but I’m much better than what i was,i believe that no one should ever be ashamed of who they are & if you have mental health problem please speak up about it & do not let anyone stop you from using your voice,once you make that first step in getting help you are on your way to recovery, I love working on the page it keeps me busy & helping other people in similar situations has been a very big part in my healing,i love taking my dog for walks to & listening to music,in fact that I have done all afternoon listen to music as when I get a trigger it soothes it i think.
I was not allowed to go to the doctors when I was with my ex. He used to call me a weak woman if I did for my health,& I think the worst thing to say to someone with a mental health illness is you look healthy ,I don’t know how many times I’ve had that said to me when really I’m feeling like crap i have insomnia & anxiety so some days are bad but most are good ,I want people to know they are not alone & that there is help out there & people do care,do not suffer in silence like I did for years.